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I may not show it, but inside, the littlest things kills me. I try hard not to show it, because I hate feeling as I’m weak around people. The littlest things you do to, can hurt me. Not physically but mentally. Imagine when I deal with a heartbreak.
You spouting those words out of your mouth like it was nothing, but it was really painful. It was like every word you said was a dagger that stabbed me, one by one. Worst part is that you didn’t know how painful I was to hear you say things like that. It might not mean anything to you, but I won’t forget what you said to me. Those words will be something I carry in the back of my head, always.
Don’t hurt yourself over someone that simply doesn’t treat you right. Don’t stay in a relationship/friendship when all you do is cry yourself to sleep. Stop letting the other person point out your mistakes and blame everything on you. You deserve so much better, someone that understands you. Someone that accepts you and your mistakes and is patient with you through everything. Someone that truly loves you and shows you that.
that’s how I always feel. Everything I do is wrong, even though I think what I’m doing is right. My decisions seem to always affect someone in a negative way. If I want to please someone, I end up disappointing myself. When my actions form into an argument, I force myself to apologize because it’s always been that way. It’s always going to be my fault, because that’s how everyone makes it seem.
Laid on your bed at night and just cried? Cried because you’re ugly. Because you’re not good enough. You counted all your flaws from head to toe to punish and feel worse about yourself. Cried because people’s comments actually hurt your feelings. Cry about your family, but you’re just a kid who can’t do anything about it. They tell you to stop complaining. Around people, you’re the happiest ray of sunshine, but nobody knows, that at night when you’re alone you just break down and cry.
I mean I know how we’re going to end up. I know you’re going to meet someone new and leave me for her. I know you’re going to get tired of me and want to leave but you won’t because you feel bad. I already know the ending to all of this. So why am I still even trying?
Never waste your time trying to explain yourself to people who have proven that they are committed to misunderstanding you. In other words, don’t define your intelligence by the number of arguments you have won, but by the number of times you have said, “This needless nonsense is not worth my time.”
I’ve learned that after a while, you just can’t cry anymore. All the tears at one point will stop, and you’ll have nothing to waste. You just have to believe and have hope that what’s meant to happen will happen. You can’t change that, even if you tried. So just dry your tears, and just have hope that tomorrow will be a better day for you.
I fucking believed your lies. You said you cared, you promised you would stay. I guess you never cared enough to stay? Well fuck you too. You fucked me over. You led me on to believe in you. You left me exactly when I was breaking down. You left me in pieces. You left me wondering…. What did I do wrong?
It’s that easy to give up on something. One stupid mistake and they all go “I’m done with this” or “It’s over”. Where did perseverance run off to? I mean, is that it? Just like that? You never really see people overlook mistakes and start thinking about all the good they’ve done so far. No. That’s never how it goes. You really only get to make the wrong choice once to ruin it all.
You start giving them all of your attention because they’re what makes you forget everything bad that’s going on in your life. They’re the first person you want to talk to in the morning and the last one before you sleep just so you can start and end your day with a smile. It all sounds great to have that someone, but it’s scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take that happiness away too when they go.
Fuck those “I can get any girl I want” type of guys. You can’t even keep one, what makes you think girls are going to be all over you? You know what’s attractive? When guys know how to keep it real with their girl, and not 5 others.
"I could feel my insides sink. My knees too. So I sat on the ground, against the wall, letting it support me. I thought I knew what heartbreak felt like. I thought heartbreak was me, eating by myself at a famous cafe in the city. That was nothing. This, this was heartbreak. The pain in your chest,…
Do you ever go from texting someone every day to realizing you’re always the one texting first, so you eventually stop texting first to see if they ever even realize you two haven’t talked and they don’t realize so you’re just stuck silently missing them knowing it’s not even worth it anymore because they obviously don’t care.
I’m not the nice girl everyone thinks I am. I push people away. I push people that I care about and love so much away. Why? I want to know why also. I want to know why always do that. Is it the fact that there was finally someone who cared about me and loved me as much as you did?…
Sometimes I tend to think about my past a lot. I mean everyone does, right? You start thinking about what you’ve been through with your life. Reminiscing everything. Then you start to regret. Asking yourself all this questions. Why did I do this & that? Why him? Why her? After that, you get sad and depress. You end up crying because you miss those days back then. Unfortunately, you can’t do anything and you can’t go back. Because all that’s left is nothing but memories
I think I’m going to stop being the caring person I’ve been these past years. Caring has literally gotten me nowhere except hurting myself. People just take advantage of me, even the people I thought never would and that really sucks. Deep down I’ll still know what matters but I’m just not going to show it like I use to. I’m not going to be an asshole but I’m not going to be a “sweetheart” either. Sorry if I disappointed you but whatever.
I remember how we used to talk like there was no tomorrow. I remember how every thing you said brought a smile to my face. How every conversation lasted for hours. Your good morning messages used to start my morning, and I always ended up falling asleep to your goodnight ones. I remember when my heart used to race, and how I would smile like an idiot out of nowhere just because I remembered something you said. Every single memory we had, I remember every single one of them.
Nights like these are where I hesitate to call you, to text you. I lay in bed, debating whether or not I should call you, or send you a simple message. I go through my contacts list click on your name, but I can’t seem to hit send or nights dont want to bother you or annoy you, and since you’re probably asleep as well.
It takes a boy to flirt with you, steal your heart, give you butterflies, lie to you, give up on you too easily, walk away from your life and not care at all
But it takes a real man to handle you, embrace your imperfections, tell you the truth no matter how brutal it is, never give up on you no matter how hard it is, pleasure you, treat you like you’re the only one and give up the game because he’s just too good for that.